Was doing my introspective reflection for the past 2nd-half of the sem, last night and tonight; and boy did God do SO many things in my life within these 2 months. the sheer amount of things that has happened is overwhelming, and i have never written so many pages of a qt journal entry before (5.5 pages listing what has happened in my life since end-Feb, why God has allowed it to happen, and what God wants to teach me through it). am also very thankful to God for enabling me to remember to apply this habit of introspective reflecting in my life after learning it from Jun Wei's workshop the last NYC camp. it has helped me to recount God's blessings so much, and helped me to see things and events in my life in a clearer perspective, one that may be closer to that of God's. not just to merely go through the motion of things which happen in the moment (which i have to admit i often, always do.. i don't really find myself much of a deep thinker......), but to remember the importance of looking back, and understanding why God allowed this to happen, and what He desires me to learn from it to apply in future events in my life.
i desire to list all 30 points out of the events in the past 2 months in this entry, but... i think it would be better to post them in a separate entry in the near future hahaha... it's too long to squeeze here!
nonetheless, am very thankful for service today, for God reaffirmed a word which I had been prompted to share to certain friends to add along to a short testimony which i shared. the word I shared which went accurately in line with my testimony was:
Philippians 3:7-8 (NIV)
But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ..
and the exact same 2 verses were shared by Daniel Cheah during worship in service today, as a word of wisdom.
thank You God, for always being so attentive and quick to reassure Your children, that You are here and You are near. thank You for drawing me out from my rut, for removing my blindfold and helping me to see with 20/20 clarity of vision, the real riches found in heaven which persist to exist even when this world does not. thank You for speaking to me so tangibly with Your Word and Your Presence. help me to always remember to remember. to remember Your goodness, all that You've done for me, all the promises You have made and will fulfil, and have already fulfilled.
the one thing i always cannot fathom is why we as man must always forget. why must we forget? imagine if forgetfulness is not a characteristic of us man. how much more will we ever praise and love our Lord? we will never forget the blessings He has given us, the words He spoke to us, and hence will not even consider walking away from Him.
but I guess forgetting is necessary to be reminded all over again, for a renewal of hardened hearts, to experience God's power in a new way never previously experienced before. to come back stronger, closer, more filled. stronger from heightened confidence in God, closer to Him in our walks, and more filled with the Spirit and His presence.
still, given a chance, i would want to remember everything. forgetfulness often leads us to stray away to sin...
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